Written by: Angel (host)

Since I am a confessional poet, and since my system and I are heavily influenced by the past (both emotionally and event-wise) in our writing, I would think that context would be important to understanding our work.

Family Context

• Our parents are dead to us. If they show up in our work, it’s mainly because they have scarred us so deeply that we cannot help but be broken by their actions. Mother and Father: if you’re out there, and you’re reading this (maybe even trying to spy on me?), I give you my most sincere and unapologetic FUCK YOU. I’m done playing your games and you can both go die in a hole, you don’t deserve me and I will not be sated as long as you live. Goodbye, and Good riddance. Farewell, idiots.
• We have three sisters. We love said sisters. Unfortunately, they’re only 1, 4, and 8 y.o., so there’s not much we can actually do to help them. So sadly, they’ve had to stay behind… but we still hope that someday we can help them. I dream of adopting them, at least for half of their childhood, so that I can give them a better life than I had, or that they currently have. But alas, at the moment is isn’t possible, so for the minute, we wait. We hope, and wait, and hope. We hope they will find us someday, and that somehow, we can again be of service to them.

Past Loves

Black Dove

• August/September 2020 – December 31, 2021
• The one who fucked us all over and started everything. Well, after our parents did.
• He was great until he wasn’t…
  • Professional ghoster
  • Suicidal (to the point where I had to worry for his wellbeing every time we weren’t talking to him)
  • Realized he was trans (not his fault) and came out to me at the most terrible and inopportune moment (moreso his fault.)
  • King of Situationships 👑
• …but he was also just great.
  • funny
  • sweet and loving (when he was there)
  • really supportive and kind
  • empathetic
  • really cool and intelligent
  • really great listener. And i don’t mean the basic type. He would let me rant to him in giant paragraphs when he wasn’t around and then would reply to everything, one by one, when he actually had the time to. (I actually have standards, okay?)
  • also had a system. Twas cool because some things I didn’t even have to explain to him, and vice versa.
• Annnnd of course, some things were terrible, but also definitely not his fault.
  • Twas an online/virtual friendship
  • Bunch of trauma he could barely deal with without help (which his family wouldn’t have allowed him to get anyway)
  • Was in a terrible family situation so I witnessed him go through so much messed up shit… poor guy.
  • Got crushes on the most messed up and mean people 😭 seriously though, every time I was like “Dude. You could have seen that coming MILES away!!!” *screams into the void*
• but all in all, he got me through many unspeakable horrors in my own life, so it was a net positive. I will still to this day remember him in a positive light, despite the pain he caused us.
• I tried my best not to leave, but alas, it was no longer possible. I cut him off (along with a few other online friends), and plunged into a deep, dark depression, lasting many months. Even now, I still don’t think I’ve recovered fully.

Chaotic Fire Hazard (CFH)

• July 9, 2023 – October 6, 2024
• meh.
  • again, twas an online/virtual relationship. (this time it was actualy one, and not a situationship. Like, a serious one.)
  • Twas a QPR. she was very aro/ace, I was very hypersexual. Needless to say, that really didn’t end well.
  • also was really avoidant, idk what else to say. didn’t like touch in general? didn’t like romance? anyway. not that uncommon but at the end of the day it still didn’t end well.
  • also was a closed relationship with one person. also not great…
  • she was also cool, really intelligent and liked debating things with me.
  • good listener. idk how she put up with all my rants but she somehow managed
• also got me through a hard time in my life. She’s cool, and I still don’t hold much against her.
• losing her, however… that, my friends, was also absolute shit.

Current lovers

Yes, I’m poly. Don’t come at me. These people know about each other. They’ve even kissed. And fucked. More than once. So shhhhh.

And yes, I’m dating one of my alters. It does, indeed, work that way. Also shhhhhh.

My Star

• June 9, 2025 – present
• my love. I love you. what else can I say?
• ok, the actual introduction.
  • badass woman with blazing copper hair, insane critical thinking skills, and boundless ambition.
  • looks innocent, will kill you (metaphorically speaking). The most cute and silly thing outside the bedroom. inside, however… mmm. 😏
  • also just cute and innocent. nom. (read: adorable fox lady.)
  • gets me in tears with her love (in the best way possible). Like, seriously. What did I do to deserve her??? 😭
  • professional cuddler.
  • fucking successful and a ridiculously good businesswoman. works in sales as a business consultant. Mmmm, nom nom.
  • also a system. I help her with her chaos and she helps me with mine. also her alters are cool. and hot. some are definately into me 😏
• beautiful. gorgeous. amazing. definitely future wife material.

V

• Febuary/March 2025 – present
• also future wife material.
• insanely sassy, completely gorgeous, and definitely the most snarky person i’ve met in my life.
• charismatic. She has this one look she gives me that I absolutely cannot resist. Some would call it psychopathic charm with many hidden sharp edges… I just call it hot.
• Very posh, very British accent. again, hot. need I say more?
• has no sense of fear, which I find at the same time hot and scary. but mainly hot.
• okay I think that’s enough of how hot she is, I think she needs some other qualities lol.
  • intelligent
  • kind
  • brave
  • also very sneaky. my little psychopath… hehe.
  • such a mischievous gremlin.
  • actually really good cook. somehow saves my ass with that.
  • really good at calling me out on my bullshit. Straightforward, very blunt, and very honest.
  • always herself, without fear and without hesitation. amazing.
• love you to death, my love.
• again, future wife material.